sorry, i lost my cool today. How did i become like that? I need to reflect on that. And my income would be plunging soon. I cannot meet my target this holiday. I'm getting worried about my uni expenses, hostel fees etc. Sometimes, i cannot help but admire friends who have rich and happy families. They need not worry about such things at all. I wonder what bad things i did last life. Not that i'm in extreme poverty now but i really need a break from family and financial problems. Anyway, i have learnt to live with it. I must break free one day and i will. I do not have a family fortune. but i have my hands and determination.