hey, im done with my A levels. It feels like i had been in it for yrs though its only 10 days. Seriously.. over the past 2 yrs in college. I dun rmb myself not mugging for long term. 1st 3 mths having fun..then enter tj..june common test..then promos n Yr 2 came and went in a flash.. This is incredible. I think im gg to miss it.

I feel that it is those 2 yrs in tj tt i really study it right n focused. though not tt great results but still can get some sort of 满足感 in some way out of studies. ok u may not understand..hmm im not a v successful person in anyway. I have been to the lowest pt (which i felt was the lousiest times i had ) in life and tried hard to get out of it. I think i did get out..at least some steps away from it. Its really a turning pt i would say. I accepted my flaws and overcome my fear. Rebuild a little confidence..strive for the better..determination. i do tend to enjoy sayin "I will nv give up" though obviously gg to fail haha. ok u may think im nuts. perhaps the failure i met was nothin but it almost killed me. Dun think my frenz will understand la. since they are so successful ppl. Glad that i manage to get into a new phase in life! yea

Of cos..all these wouldnt hav been better w/o pals and teachers helping me along the way.. Im so blessed that i got into tj. though jc life nothing but muggin..but really made a difference somehow. Ive got gd tutors..and my class. though some may say its jus a come-and-go kind of place, but i feel its the best i can get already? I wont say the class is bonded to the max but we managed to get things done together as a class lyk lunching together as 1 gang..lecture together..sports carnival..get class events settled well.. really wan to thank all of my classmates.

As for tt exam i just took. hmm im not expecting anything gd out of it. Its my retribution.. haiya no pt saying.. but im qt happy this time cos i managed my stress well hmm if not better. only slpless for first 2 nites!!!! and i endured my 3 days 7 papers experience!!! im so proud of myself!!! though really felt lyk dying on tues weds..heez
Im not gg to think of the outcome. really qt a heartache..thinkin of those subj most prob gg to flop. well..think shld be no regrets this time le. really mug till the end of the world.. haha cant make anythin better w/o making anythin worse of myself. pareto optimality liao hor. ok so huizhi well done! haha im so biantai.

was chatting with some frenz..realised that we have so different objectives in life. I suddenly feel tt we belong to different worlds.. some already got places in foreign uni..some shortlisted for interviews..how glamourous life they have..no setbacks..everything set well for them. For me..still have to struggle with academic..family probs. Cant say heaven is unfair. Just hav to embrace them. We can emerge as winners of our problems ba. Though sometimes qt demoralising.. but some things are just not meant to be for me. Ive always feel tt im in a race. Some ppl can stroll to their goals but i have to run. even if i ran, still cant seem to catch up. Perhaps heaven wants me to slow down my pace so that i can see what others cant. i really love this phrase :

我习惯用低的角度來看这个世界，站在底层往上看，每往下站一點，看到的世界就大一点，这里面的人就多一点。他们让我看到原本看不到的，了解本來不了解的，透过每一双和我相遇的眼睛，我看到了无数的世界..

jiayou!