hi everyone,

i've decided to start a new blog cos blurty is quite ugly..hahaz..2ndly, i want to have a new beginning!

ok..this pg is kind of crook cos i can't get my html skills right. there might be some distorted area. Watever but i took sometime to set up this pg. Hope u will feel happy reading my blog too=)

Wat about the next chapter? It is almost the end of 2004. from dhs to mj to tj.. life wasnt easy for me cos i had to tackle many ups n down physically and emotionally. Seeing my juniors sitting thru their prelims n their Os soon, really bring back alot of my sec4 memories. Not long ago, i fliped through my sec report bk. well, lower sec results were great but upp sec results sux. Seeing tt, i felt stupid for myself being so dumb n not doing anything bout it at tt time. Seriously, upp sec yrs were most distraught for me. I could easily top the bottom of my class. nv ever doing well in any test & exam. I was numbed by such poor results tt i decided to adopt a "tts ur fate" attitude. I didnt feel inferior cos I hav reached the limit. no pt feelin tt way. I lost e will to do & improve. The worse pt of my life so far was floppin prelims.. i really felt helpless cos i did put in 100% effort n didnt know where to head nx. v beginning of 2004 werent smooth sailing too. I had to ward off e eyes of others, trying hard not to look down on myself. My determination then was still 0%.

Thinkin back, im so glad tt i didnt give up the Os. Althou e determination i had wasnt 100%, managed to make it thru to tj! I think ive got what i deserved at least. Hence im really thankful to whoever blessing me.

Now, after a yr in tjc. i feel tt ive matured a lot. I want to scold myself for being so lan4 in sec4. not havin the spirit of doing well. Of course, ive also recognised my faults like studyin the wrong way. it's really many lessons learnt to bring me up to this point today. Ok not going to lament in the past, cos it's a must pass obstacle. What iam today was what the obstacle shaped me to be. Im very satisfied. Cos i had finally..at least yield some results from my long-lost n revived "spirit". this spirit matters alot to me and im not going to let it go for the rest of my life.

Im glad that i made the right choice of entering tj, forsaking my appeal to vj. Ive found the right studyin environment for myself and realized im not suitable to live in an extreme competitive env. ive got the best teachers, class and frenz so.. now im v thankful for tt.

Promos was a very encouraging reflection of my effort. I didnt get As of cos but getting myself promoted was the best thing no matter what. 2ndly, improving in every subj really drives me on. I was quite worried at the beginning cos this yr, i changed my learning style. And if this style failed me, i really do not know how to do well. Of cos i still do not believe in setting expectations cos heaven will let me fall down hard. I think i should take the realistic path, jus trying my v best in anythin i do. This little archievement in promos is really precious to me cos im a typical capricornus. I cannot take failure all the time lyk what i had in sec4. this is what makes tj suitable cos there is room for u to thrive with tt little spirit always there at times. If i were in any better jcs now. I will be reliving my upp sec yrs. feelin so sian diao w results, no driving force.

now i know y tj has the passion, purpose & drive. thank you heaven for bringing me there.
From now on, i will be brave..i will overcome all e difficulties ahead..i will reach my destination one day. Not forgetting my best pals..the ulu ppl...yah yeah u! lets jiayou together. Dun be upset over pw or anythin else. They arent worth ur tears.
the best thing in life is knowing y u made it so far, reviewing n enlightening constantly for the betterment of mankind n ultimatedly urself!